I need a get away, & today I will get my get away w/ my lovely friends. <3
My foolish pride has become a haunting nightmare that will never leave my side. Its been a real long time and this situation still remains a burden on my shoulders. I can’t help but let it be something that will keep haunting me. Even though it has been so long it still gets the best of me & I have no control over it what so ever. But my parents have raised me to be a strong young woman today and I promise them that I will keep my head up high and make them proud. I won’t let this taunting experience ruin thTe rest of my life, yes it is a burden and its something I will always remember and it will affect me for years. But god puts us through situations and dilemmas to learn and to make sure that we don’t repeat mistakes and teach us the essence of life, and rather than being so negative I will be positive and take it as a learning experience because i was young, naive, and immature. I love my parents to death and I will make them proud parents of a successful daughter.
& Today Was that specific date that I can never get through, its the hardest time of the year for me but I thank god for blessing me with my parents, My boothang Ana, My girly Carisa, Gaze, & lastly Mickeybaby. Even though there are several other people close to my heart that know this situation Ive been through these were the many few who remembered and made sure that I got through this day with a smile on my face. The ones that know how hard this day is for me made sure every year that Im able to pull myself together and not shed one tear. I’m Glad they made sure my day was filled with lots of love and laughter. <3
Parent, THE ONE that supported me during the moment the one that stayed up nights dealing with me being frighten, protecting me from getting harmed, running around handling things so that I’m able to live a good future set aside from the haunting experience. I can’t say much all I can say is they definitely fulfilled a parents job, and I couldn’t have been blessed with better parents.
Ana, she simply my boothang and she has always supported me with all my decisions and gave me hope towards my weakness and whenever this time of the year came around she knew that I’m at my weakest point and make sure that I’m hanging in there without even telling her boo todays the day. She knows when the time of the year is and she comes running to me making sure I’m okay & i truly love her for that.
Carisa, my girly, who I can call my sister, my other half, my friend, my best friend, my partner in crime, my everything. A girl who understand every situation I go through, a girl who sets aside my faults and gives me the greatest word of wisdom, a girl who is not my religion nor my culture but manages to support me and understand me. A girl who makes sure around this time of the year that I’m smiling and fills my day with so much happiness and reminds of how much a good person I am. I couldn’t get any better comfort than she gives me. Im happy she’s apart of my life and one of the few who always makes sure every year around this time Im happy and not breaking down in a corner. Helping to stay open not shut myself from the world. I love you girl & thank you.
Gaze, A man who I’ve been through so much with, I may sound like a hypocrite because there was a point where i disliked him i grew hatred. But life is to short to hold grudges my parents taught me to forgive and move on not just my parents but my religion. set aside from all we have been through, I have love for him because he’s the guy who supported me through this moment, a guy who accepted me, who comforted me, when i didn’t know who i was, when i was going crazy he helped me keep myself together, and every year when this date comes around he makes sure that I have this pretty smile on my face. I don’t care what the world thinks anymore life goes on, its short, and I just want to be happy and accept the people who cares about me . & gaze has done so every time this time of the year comes around. All I want to say is thank you & you’ll always have that spot in my <3 because no other guy remembers like you do every year.
Mickeybaby, even though she graduated and left me to airzona she managed every year to call me text me making sure I’m smiling around this time of the year. I don’t think anyone who’s miles away from me calling me texting me 24/7 to make sure I’m happy but this girl always did. & this year I was blessed to have her with me the whole night making sure my day and night is filled with laughter and that i don’t shut myself in my room and be depressed and cry my eyes out thats why I love her so much. & Im glad she’s back in hayward for good. <3
I just want so say that these few people got me through the most hardest day of my life and that I love them dearly, & set aside from all the wrongs, arguments, fights, hatred. I will forever love them and want them apart of my life because I know god blessed me with them for a reason. <3 PEACE & LOVE.
